I am so sorry for the unplanned hiatus these past couple of months. Sometimes the seesaw of life (relationships, roles, unplanned events, and tasks) tips unevenly to one side or the other and seems to stay there awhile. During busy seasons and faced with a decision on where to focus my energies, I often set creative endeavors aside.
No, don’t adjust your monitor. These photos are indeed out of focus and a little distracting. A couple of years ago, the pace of daily life shifted to warp speed. There’s barely time to live in each moment; much less process it. As I click away, my mind continually processing scenes faster than the camera, my husband often shakes his head. (I have even requested that no blurry photos be deleted. Someday, I just might use those!) Sometimes I snap a shot as some writing idea races through my mind. More often than not, I am simply trying to capture the scenes of life flying past.
The busier the schedule gets, the quieter I become. But that quietness on the outside doesn’t always mean stillness on the inside. Internally, there is often a flurry of activity as changes come fast and furious and I find myself in a continual balancing act. There are times that I am quite certain the flexibility joint has bent as far as it possibly can. But God always shows me that, yes, it can bend some more … if I am willing. He uses these hectic seasons to help me prioritize between the essential and non-essential.
Today, He may use me to bring comfort through a smile or a hug; to listen and cry with a grieving friend over a devastating loss. Tomorrow, my role may be that of a secretary, chauffeur, dishwasher, or grocery shopper. Next week, it could be as homework checker, teacher, or all around errand runner; to name only a few. And on most days, the roles collide and blend together. Regardless of the task, I am called to be available; even in the words of my posts.
Yes, there is joy at warp speed … again, if I am willing. Instead of focusing on what isn’t getting done or what’s up ahead, God reminds me of the importance of the tasks He sets before me. He would have me live fully in His moment; not mine. It’s not the speed of life that’s the issue; the problem surfaces when I take my eyes off of God, even for a second.
I pray that one day, even in the busiest of seasons, a peaceful spirit will reign inside as well as out.
Romans 15:32-33 that I may come to you with joy by the will of God, and may be refreshed together with you. Now the God of peace be with you all. Amen.